Sew In the Pink!

Beauty & Power

2009-07-31T11:16:00.000-07:00

When I first saw this horse, i was blown away. Even though I am a born and breed country girl, I am not truly a cowgirl. I guess the color of the horse stole my heart. It's blond! Case and Point.

Another thing that came to mind was how beautiful and powerful this animal is. And see how boldly it is looking at me. Not backing down or away from the fence. Actually it got closer and turned all the way around as I got closer to take pictures. Then I started to commune with God and realized that SO AM I! I used to be sooo absorbed in myself that I couldn't leave the house without make-up perfect and every hair in the right place. But after several incidences in my life that shall remain nameless, I realized that I was spending too much time on my physical beauty and letting my inner slip slowly. Granted, I have always been a nice, caring, considerate person. Always putting others needs before mine. Anyway, back to the point, after attending the Ladies Fellowship service at my church, I had and awakening. One of the speakers spoke on Power for Life. As she spit out the reference verses, my mind was in a tailspin as was Alice when she fell down the hole following the rabbit. My life has so much more potential than even I can realize. I have the POWER to speak life and death into every situation in my life. I have the POWER to keep my enemy under my foot. I have the POWER to do anything because of God's grace and mercy. And as long as I maintain my inner BEAUTY , I will have the POWER to win souls for Christ. Most of us get so caught up in trying to please those who don't matter. Who gave the gossip columnist, photographers in Hollywood, so on and so on the power to judge Who and What is beautiful? The last time I checked with the Bible, we ALL were made in GOD'S image. And God don't make no mess! Now the power in our lives comes when we learn to lean and depend on God and all the promises he has to offer.

Now before you get carried away with new found confidence, don't forget to read the small print: BY BELIEVING IN GOD AND THE RESURRECTION OF JESUS CHRIST, YOU WILL HAVE TO DENY YOURSELF AND LIVE YOUR LIFE ACCORDING TO THE WORD. AND EVEN THOUGH LIVING YOUR LIFE FOR CHRIST OFFERS MANY REWARDS, YOU WILL BE FACED WITH THE OCCASIONAL TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS. YOU WILL BE TEMPTED TO SIN AND TOTALLY TURN YOUR BACK ON CHRIST WHEN THINGS DO NOT FALL INTO PLACE AS YOU WANT THEM TO. THIS WILL ONLY BE TO TEST YOUR FAITH AND LOYALTY. JUST KNOW THAT THERE IS A BLESSING AND A LESSON IN EVERY STORM. SOMETIMES THERE MAY EVEN BE A SPANKING IN THE MIDST OF YOUR TRIALS. GOD WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU OR FORSAKE YOU.

Now, who can't find the beauty in all that power!!! AMEN!

The Masquerade Ball

2009-07-21T18:20:00.000-07:00

I thought this picture was suiting because it is me in my most natural state. Stripped of make-up and jewelry and hair being done. I have gotten so used to hiding behind things not allowing my true beauty to shine. I wrote this poem during a time when I was struggling with my Christian identity. I have never lost the faith and wanted to turn back to the dark side, but I have just been faced with a lot of doubt and fear and frustrations. I see so many people living a worldly life: not going to church on the regular, not paying their tithes, going to the club or drinking and partying all night, and think they seem happy and successful. Living in nice homes with nice cars and always shopping. Just once in my life I would like to buy something with saving for weeks or moving bills around to manage. Anyway, I know the bible speaks against a life not centered around him and to be perfectly honest, i don't want to live any other way. I just get frustrated from tome to time. That's why I write poetry, to give reverence to God and let him know that I know and respect his word and will live my life accordingly. Hope all enjoy the poem.

I received an invitation today

With an overly elaborate design and display

Adorned with many regal words to say

"It's a party, join us if you may!"

I began expressing excitement and despair

Questioning what shoes and color dress to wear

What about make-up, who will do my hair?

Who will I see, who will be there?

Upon arrival I didn't feel as expected

Not liking the sight and sounds being projected

Appalled to the manner I was being subjected

An invitation I should have surely rejected

I didn't tarry in that company long

Even though the night was yet young

No longer wanting to dwell among those doing wrong

And be soaked in a stinch so sickenly strong

I thought there'd be no harm to attend

Thinking I could release the frustrations within

Knowing I was different but thought I could blend

Out of control my sanity continues to spin

Wanting to mask my reality without leaving a trace

Submitting to weakness getting lost in time and space

Slowly being separated from God's saving grace

Rationalizing that I could live two lives with only one face

Heading home along the river's bank

I stopped to give God praise and thanks

Realizing the party goers were out of my rank

Staying an longer would have depleted my spiritual tan

Rising early for church the next day

Wanting to be the first at the altar to pray

Having rehearsed many fluffy words to say

Full of excuses why I chose to stray

I received a different kind of invitation today

When I humbly knelt at the altar to pray

Not being adorned with an overly elaborate display

It was from the Father and Son saying , "Join us if you may!"

Qubilah Harden, June 3, 2009

Reflection: RESTORATION

2009-07-19T20:10:00.000-07:00

After a very uplifting Friday night Ladies Worship service at my church, I realized I am so behind in my worship and meditation. One speaker spoke on Fellowship. She gave this background story that so opened my eyes to what I was doing wrong in my life. I realized that I don't fellowship with others often because I don't want to open myself to be be hurt or disappointed. I shut down and hide behind excuses and insecurities. But what I first need to do is fellowship more with God and he will open my heart and mind to fellowship more with others. In life there are no guarantees. As long as there is breath in the body and we work and shop outside the four walls of our home, we are destined to be faced with some sort of hurt and disappointment. No matter what the enemy has to throw at us to trip us up, God always got our backs. We have to first BELIEVE! We have to believe in the promises listed all throughout the Bible. We have to believe that we are worthy to receive the blessing that come along with these promises. We have to believe in our natural talents and abilities that are given by God to edify and exalt Him. The clock has struck midnight and the Masquerade ball is over! it's time to remove the mask and reveal your true beauty. Physical beauty is but for a moment, but true inner beauty last a lifetime!

It's been too long!

2009-05-27T18:12:00.000-07:00

Ok blog friends, I know I have been away for a long time. I feel like I'm ready to get back to sharing bits of my life's frustrations so to hopefully get some insight from those more profound than myself. I recently lost my job and thought I would be cool. But in all honestly, my feelings are very hurt. To add insult to injury, other aspects of my life don't seem to be so cohesive either. One fine day my mind,body and soul will come together as one. I'm determined that my main focus is going to be on me. I feel if I get me together, then my house and home will fall into place. I believe the Bible when it says there is tremendous power in the tongue. We have the power to speak life and death. I choose to speak LIFE! I speak life on my son's life and well being and I speak life into my marriage.

Sign the petition!

2008-11-12T09:41:00.001-08:00

I'M Back!

2008-09-18T13:03:00.000-07:00

I know it has been a LONG time since my last post but I think I am back in the swing of things. I have just been trying to get my mind, body and soul to work together. Not an easy task, might I add. Anyway, I have been doing some soul searching while searching for my walking shoes!LOL! By the way, who ever said that exercise and dieting were fun or easy, LIED! I admit that beauty is pain and you have to sweat to appreciate the outcomes but it has been a hard road ahead. I have been discouraged but I am determined to not give up on the life God has so graciously given me. I am not at the goal I truly want to be but I am not stopping either. All I ask of my friends and family is that you keep me in your prayers. I have so many ideas about projects I want to do, that I wish I could bottle that mental energy and turn it into physical. I know the only true motivation should be LIFE but sometimes we all need some materialistic motivation. I want to leave you all with these words about my personal journey:

Tears will fill my eyes
As I seem farther from my prize
Trying to finish this race
And kick dust in failure's face
No one said this would be easy
Though I thought a bit breezy
I Can stop, wont stop
Got to reach the mountain top
Tears will fill my eyes
Because of my long awaited prize
That I have just won
By believing in the Son
And withstanding the test of time
Victory today is mine!

2008-05-06T13:01:00.000-07:00

MAY 7, 2008
EVERYONE PLEASE LET'S SUPPORT THIS CAUSE IN OUR AREA IN SOME WAY. THIS IS A MAY BE A NEVER ENDING ISSUE BUT MAYBE WE COULD WORK TO MAKE THE NUMBER LOWER. FIND A TEEN AND MENTOR TO THEM.

Writers Block

2008-05-02T07:16:00.000-07:00

I have been working so hard to get some new poetry written. I seem to have a block of some kind. I don' t know if I am just unmotivated or am I trying to hard. I would love to here from my friends. I need some topic ideas. There are times that I can write several lines with no topic then there are times I have a great topic with no lines to fill the page. I am begging for help. I will post other things I have written that I need help with finding a topic. Thanks to everyone for being supportive.

"The journey of a thousand miles........"

2008-04-08T14:03:00.000-07:00

I know that it is time for me to takes some steps to a healthier life. Not only do I need to increase my physical activity, but I also need to increase and maintain my spiritual health. I sometimes get lazy and unmotivated. I have to keep my eye on the prize and focus in on my goal. My ultimate goal is not to be skinny, but slimmer and healthier and to be the Christian my son and family can be proud of. Most importantly, I want to be someone I can be proud of. It take alot for me to open up about this issue because of my experience as a child and how my family views beauty. I am not asking anyone for help, just prayers. I have struggled with this issue since forever! Everyone will try to offer all types of advice and suggestions. How about just support. I hate to feel like I am under a microscope which is another reason I do not ask for help or rely on others. Bottom line to this message: I know I need to make a change in my life and I pray that my spiritual will assist me in my physical.

My Outstanding Serive Award!!!

2008-04-05T16:14:00.000-07:00

This was totally unexpected but well deserved! I do a lot of hard work for my church because I love the Lord. I know my true reward though is in in Heaven. I thank God everyday for the opportunity to serve him by serving others. I pray that I can instill the same values and willingness to serve and worship God in my son as did my family. I am happy to say that I gave my life to Christ when I was 12, but as for my son, that is all up to him. I may not be where I feel I should be in this life but God knows what is best for me, so for that, I can say that I am truly blessed!!! AMEN

March For Babies

2008-04-04T10:37:00.000-07:00

http://www.marchforbabies.org

Every one please check out website. Our agency is trying to raise money for the cause so please make a donation. Also check out to make donation:

www.marchforbabies.org/bilahj

Quante'

2008-04-04T10:00:00.000-07:00

Where do I begin when it comes to my child. He is the joy that shines so brightly in my life. Although there are a few rainy days. He keeps me motivated to be the best provider I can for our family. I want to provide for him the luxuries I didn't always have growing up. Now, I am not saying that I will spoil him with everything he wants. Of course not! One of the most important gifts I will give to him is the desire to work hard for what you want in this life. I will also share with him the gift of the Holy Spirit and encourage him to develop a personal relationship with God.

I love him with all my heart and soul but sometimes I feel I have gone wrong somewhere with my parenting skills. I know he is a boy: adventurous, curious, headstrong, stubborn, etc. I have to admit though, at times he can be the sweetest child on earth. He seems to know when mommy is not feeling well emotionally and he does his best to comfort me. Now I have never made him feel that it his responsibility to take care of me, but God works through him to melt away the sad moments. I know that there are those moments that all of us parents go through wondering, " Is my child's behavior a punishment for something I did when I was a child?" If God has a sense of humor, then in my case, I would have to say YES!! Bottom line, the point I want to make is that I don't take my child for granted and I try to give him the best of my love and support and guidance I can. Besides, when I get older, I want him to be nice to me and not put me in a nursing home if I can't care for myself. LOL!

* The second picture is that of Quante' and his brother by his dad. i don't think Dwaine and I will jump back into the parenting pool again.

2008-04-04T08:41:00.001-07:00

Here is my lastest creation:

This Easter Day

My Soul rejoices this Easter Day,
As I witness nature giving God his praise.

Usually this holiday is celebrated in April,
Still in Spring nonetheless to signify renewal.

My flesh rejoices this Easter Day,
Knowing by the blood my sins have been washed away.

On the cross he hung with side pierced and nailed hands and feet.
As the clouds grew dark and thunder rolled, death he did defeat.

My Heart rejoices this Easter Day,
As I am warmed by God’s shining rays.

God gave his son as sacrifice for all who shall believe.
Redemption, power, and love shall be yours this day to receive.

My hands and feet rejoice this Easter Day,
Knowing the tomb is empty where Jesus once lay.

During this season shed off the old self and drape on the new,
Stand up and profess loudly that Christ lives in you.

Not just about sewing

2008-04-04T08:16:00.000-07:00

Hello, i just wanted to clarify some things about my page. It will not just be all about sewing. Please feel free to discuss anything you like. That is just my passion and I felt that would be a great start for discussions. I will from time to time post my poetry so that my friends and family can get a feel of who I am and see how much I have grown in the past years. I am so excited to share a bit of myself with the world. For so long I have been this shy, quiet, behind the scenes kind of person. I feel that God has blessed me with too many talents to let life pass me by. It is time for Qubilah to truly shine. I hope to some day get a clothing line out there and my poetry published. As you stop by to read or post, I hope you enjoy. SMOOCHES!!!!

Hello!

2008-04-03T13:10:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone! I just wanted to invite all to join my blog all about sewing . I am an advid seamstress and aspiring designer. I am just looking for people to connect with that share my passion for fashion and those who can offer me priceless tips. Just because the title of my blogspot is about sewing, don't let that run you away. I am very active in my church and from time to time post pics about my life as an Usher